Testicular Insufficiency

A comment Dean made on a post by Kelly has got me to thinking: "Life should be lived with balls, IMO. " While I agree whole-heartedly in principle, I realize that I have not, in fact, followed this maxim in my own life. In other words, I lack balls.

I have allowed an excess of fear to inform* my life: fear of conflict, fear of criticism, fear of disappointing someone, fear of asking too much, fear of success ... I take the path of least resistance, at least when it is only my desires at stake.

The question is, how does one stop acting out of fear and start acting out of ... I don't know, joy perhaps? Boldness, conviction, sureness, élan ... fearlessness.

*I use 'inform' here in it's more academic sense of "to be a pervasive presence in."